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12.15.2005

One-Way

Why am I wondering where
I made a mistake?








Through all the rest of it, I've managed to figure out emotions on a logical level. In fact, I have the ability to 'explain' my way in or out of any given emotion. For a while I was thinking it was a talent. Now I realize it's just a shortcut to creating my very own ultimate hurdle.

While every choice anyone ever makes in any given moment is the only one a person feels is 'right' at the time, the sequence of events invokes in a feeling of entrapment. I got myself in this situation, but how did I end up here?

It's happening again. I'm getting curious. Curious about what life would be like if I took yet another direction. I'm still me. And I'm still here. But I have a strong urge to be that person. That person over there. It's me. You'll see.

photo by: my sister
:: posted by chumpsrock, 10:58 PM


6 Comments:

Poetic. Your writing is poetic.
Blogger The Editor, at 5:10 AM  
Do you think I could pass for being lyrically inclined? I really don't consider myself to be very poetic.
Blogger chumpsrock, at 4:52 PM  
I think you could be. I'm certainly no expert judge of these things though. But hey, how hard can it be to do lyrics? Then again, I doubt I could do poetry or lyrics.
Blogger The Editor, at 11:24 PM  
I am trapped between indecision and rationalizing. Hence, the lack of progress.

I understand, darling.
Blogger Miss Marisol, at 5:25 PM  
That's just the word I was looking for.
'Rationalizing' - it's so not 'procrastinating,' but leaves me with a very similar feeling.
Blogger chumpsrock, at 7:37 PM  
My wife gave me a book just after we got married called, "How to Stop Procrastinating".

Now after being married 16 years, I must get around to reading it.
Blogger Unknown, at 10:18 PM  

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