10.22.2005
Cloud 9
- Having no evident sex or sex organs; sexless.
- Relating to, produced by, or involving reproduction that occurs without the union of male and female gametes, as in binary fission or budding.
- Lacking interest in or desire for sex.
The conclusion wasn't challenging. At the time, I didn't want to be rude and say I wasn't attracted to anyone. Most of my 'friends' were boys; they weren't stupid, and looks really don't mean anything to me. Either I like you as a person, or I don't.
I have to admit I did set 3 limits:
-Don't date anyone you live with
-Don't date anyone you're in a band with
-Don't date anyone you work with
These rules eliminated 90% of the guys I met. But to prove my own point to myself, I dated one guy from each category. I considered it "the control group" - science applied to philosophy.
The 'live with' guy was the last in a long line of guys I lived with, and of course it turned out to be dramatic and stupid because we lived together, and we had other roommates.
The 'band width' guy was fun and the the whole 'dating' experience was extremely short and unspoken about. Of course the band fell apart.
I have to admit I did set 3 limits:
-Don't date anyone you live with
-Don't date anyone you're in a band with
-Don't date anyone you work with
These rules eliminated 90% of the guys I met. But to prove my own point to myself, I dated one guy from each category. I considered it "the control group" - science applied to philosophy.
The 'live with' guy was the last in a long line of guys I lived with, and of course it turned out to be dramatic and stupid because we lived together, and we had other roommates.
The 'band width' guy was fun and the the whole 'dating' experience was extremely short and unspoken about. Of course the band fell apart.
The 'work with' guy literally lasted as long as a lunch break.
I decided I never wanted to get married. And then I met the exception to my own rule. This guy is smart, he keeps me on my toes, and he's funny. To top it all off, I've never been so attracted to anyone ever in my entire life. I had no other choice but to marry this man. He possesses the optimum qualities I hope to be a major influence throughout the duration of my life.
I've been with him 3 years, and we've been married for 2, but I know he's the person I never want to part with. I can tell because I've always hated cooking, but I've recently taken an interest because I'd like to do something for him everyday that he'll like.
Call me domestic, call me what you want. Just know that I don't know what's come over me. I think the closest anyone has ever come to describing it is: "You just know."
I always hated that vague description, but I'm well-traveled in the continental United States and this is the closest I've ever gotten to being able to convey this feeling to others. For variety's sake, everyone is looking for something different, that's why it's impossible to elaborate.
:: posted by chumpsrock, 11:53 AM
